The Wilderness

This past Sunday at church the topic was The Wilderness. James 1:1-5 really stuck out out me. Especially verses 3 to 4. "Because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish it's work so you may be mature and not lacking anything." James 1:3-4 (NIV) As I have stated in the past entries that this past year has been a nightmare. I questioned whether God was there or not. Hoped that by not terminating the pregnancy that God would reward me by proving the medical field wrong and bring home a healthy baby. Through it all God was there but no we didn't bring home our baby. So what good came out of this? Within the first 3 years of our marriage, getting pregnant, have to bury our child and to top it off my husband losing his job. That is a lot to go through within 3 years. Through this my Will and I have come through it all and we are still in love and stronger than we were as a couple last year. Anna

Almost a Year living in this Nightmare

Well last year at this time that is when my nightmare began. That is when we found out about the heart condition and then a couple days later was the 20 wk ultrasound and that is when they noticed the skeltetal dysplasia. When does life get back to normal? It has almost been 9 mths since Faith made her short apperance on earth and it still hurts. I miss my child so much! For all you parents out there who have your children, hold them close and make sure you tell them you love them. Cherish each moment you have! You never know how long they will be here on earth. Anna