Tuesday, March 27, 2012

The Duggar's

Tonight I watched the season finale of 19 Kids and Counting. I knew what I was in for watching it. Having gone through my personal tragedy. This episode Jim Bob and Michelle were going for the big ultrasound, 18-20wk scan. They were supposed to find out the gender. Instead they got devastating news. Every pregnant woman's nightmare. There was no heart beat. Their response was this, "The Lord gives and takes away, Blessed be the Lord.". The way they handled that showed so much strength, yes they cried as expected.

How many of us were able to respond like that? When I got the news that Faith had a lethal form of dwarfism all I can say, "Why God?". I had so much anger and resentment for that. I didn't understand why He would take my baby girl away from me. The child we wanted, the child we love so much. Through this though Will and I are stronger. We learned to trust God. That is the hardest thing to do. The other day it came to me, we went through the test of Faith. Even though we have had to endure sorrow and grief, at the end will be Joy.

Thank you for reading my thoughts. Thank you Duggar family for sharing that difficult area in your life. If you only knew how many lives will be affected by this episode. Hoping that the viewing audience will find hope and healing as they go through their loss.


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Preparing for Baby Joy

I am 31 wks pregnant now. I am just so excited!!! It is getting closer to her arrival. At the same time the discomfort of pregnancy is getting to me. The feet swelling is really starting to puff out. Actually the swelling has just really started. My sleep patterns is not normal, and I do not expect it to get any better. It is so worth it! I have been on medical leave now for almost 3 wks. I thought I would get antsy, but I am enjoying this time to relax. Getting Joy's room ready.

This past weekend the painting of the room got done. It is a really nice color. It is CIL brand Paint and Primer in one, English Meadows. The crib is set up, Winnie the Pooh decal stickers are on the wall, furniture arrived yesterday. The room is almost ready.

As I am getting closer to Joy's due date I am trying to wean myself off coffee, that is not going to be fun!


Thursday, March 1, 2012


Yesterday was my 3D Ultrasound. It was just awesome! Seeing what my baby looks like. Looks like Will, and I also see the resemblance of Faith in the facial features as well. So precious. It is a girl! I just broke down in happy tears and was so happy! During the ultrasound she was always putting her feet and hands in face. I think she did not want to be bothered. The technician would put her hand on my belly to get her to move her hands and feet away from her face. Joy would move them for a second but right back. I can tell that Joy already has a personality. Less than 12 wks to go until my due date! I am so excited!