Friday, December 31, 2010

2010, year in Review.

Last year at this time of the year my husband and I were so excited! We were going to welcome our first baby in 2010. There were supposed to be 3 babies coming into my family in 2010. Only one was successfull. I am so happy for my cousin Amy. A child is such a blessing. Amelia such a beautiful baby girl. Hopefully someday I will get to meet her, distance is the issue. The other two babies supposed to be born in 2010, not so successful. One was a Blightened Ovum and my baby Faith, lost her to Thanatophoric Dysplasia. I also lost my Grandma in January 2010. It was expected because her body was starting to shut down. I never got to say good bye. That is what bothered me the most. Grandma I love you and miss you. I also know you are probably holding your great grandchild Faith. Faith you will always be in my heart and I will never forget you, ever.

The good,
  • my Aunt overcame Colon Cancer. I am so happy for her. Aunt Corrine, you are a fighter and I am so proud of you.
  • I learned what an awesome church I have, and amazing Pastors
  • I have discovered who my real friends are
  • I have met some amazing strong women who went through the same journey as I did. Thank you for being hear for me and I hope I was able to give you the support that you gave me.
  • As I mentioned before the safe arrival of my cousin Amy's little girl Amelia.

Thank you Jesus for getting me through this year. Even though there were times it felt like you were no there I know you were.

So good bye to 2010, and Hello 2011!

Anna Farrow

Sunday, December 26, 2010

First Christmas

This Christmas went better than I expected. It was still hard, I still cried. We lit a candle in her memory yesteday. Also I lit one for my Grandma Borchuk as this is her first Christmas in Heaven too. The days leading up to Christmas were not so easy. Christmas Eve at work was hard. Unfortunatley I could not get it off like I requested. A customer asked me if I had a little one. You don't know how to respond. It is like yes I have a little one but at the same time I don't. The only thing I can get out is no. Also I saw the nurse that delivered Faith too. All day long I was fighting the urge to cry. By the time my last break hit I let it out. I am so glad that I was surrounded by family. It meant a lot to me.

I hope you all had a good Christmas. Hoping 2011 will be a better one.

Anna

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Snow!


Winter is coming, in my opinion when it snows, Winter is here!


Everytime it snows I get so emotional. It is so beautiful. Faith comes to mind. In my mind I hear her shouting with excitment. "Mommy! Daddy! It is snowing!" I also picture her building a snowman and then making a snow angel. Oh my I miss Faith so much.
Anna


Anna