Tuesday, June 21, 2011

On My Mind

As I am gearing up to what would be Faith's 1st Birthday I am going through a lot of emotions. I am not sure how I feel. In a way I feel relieved because she is in Heaven and not having to rely on a ventilator. Oh how I miss Faith so much. She was so precious to me. That little bit of time I had with her meant so much to me.

At the same time I am sad because I should be watching her taking her first steps. Hearing her first words, hearing her laugh. Reading her a bedtime story, tucking her in bed at night and singing to her. I should be preparing for her 1st Birthday. My heart aches that I am not experiencing all this. Mom's do not take these moments for granted. Cherish these moments you have. Some mother is in agony because she cannot experience it herself.

Today I was thinking, what is Faith doing in Heaven? I would love to see a glimpse of what she is doing. Is she singing, dancing, making her Great Grandparents chase after her. Is she playing with the other babies? So many questions. If only I knew.

Just a reminder, remember every moment you have with your child. They are so precious!


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