August 18, 2011

I decided to stand on the scale this morning and to my surprise I have lost 3 lbs since Tuesday. I was so surprised when I saw that already.

Yesterday I went over 1100 on my calorie goal. What did it, I ate a whole package of Autumn Trail Mix. 1/3 of a cup is 50 calories. I am so bad. Trail mixes are my favorite! Once I start I cannot stop. I should have listened my my voice in my head telling me to measure!!!! Word of advice, listen to that voice of reasoning!!!

Anna

Counting Calories

Yesterday I finally purchased a scale. I officially know how much I truly weigh. My feelings, I am so embarrassed and ashamed that I have allowed myself to get that big. Honestly the thought of getting pregnant at this point I do not really want to. At the same time I want a baby so bad. Maybe the reason why I haven't conceived yet is because I am so over weight. I got this app for my iPhone it is called My Fitness Pal. It is free. You can enter in what you eat and tells you how much calories you are consuming. You enter in your weight and it calculates how much calories you should be eating. This is going to be new way for me to learn. It is not going to be easy but if I stick to it I know I can do it. Measuring everything out must be done. One thing I learned it is 140 calories per serving for Coffee with Cream and Sugar and tetley tea with Partly Skimmed milk 11 calories. So bye bye coffee! I can have tea with milk and no sugar but to have a coffee with milk and no sugar, no way!

I am looking forward to getting membership for recreation center so I can get fit. I really want to get the full membership but I am afraid I will not be able to use it as often.

Anna

Week One

Well this week I had many struggles. It is frustrating when I really want to take this serious then the temptation to indulge is so strong. I gave in several times. On Monday I walked for about 20 minutes and then bussed the rest of the way. My goal is to be able to walk the whole way to work. I did it once and I could not function at work at all. So I want to work on building up to it.

Anna

Temptation

Now that I am really working on this Healthy Lifestyle change. It is so hard. Today where did we end up going for lunch? McDonald's! I wish they would have more healthier choices. Why is it so hard?

Anna

New Lifestyle

Today on the Reality TV Network they have a marathon of X-Weighted. I have emailed them and told them about my story. They seem to only accept applicants in the west coast. It is a shame. There was this one man who weighs close to what I am now. He lost 113lbs. That has totally inspired me. I know this is not going to be an easy journey for me.

I wanted to try and see if I can do a jog. I maybe did 50m and couldn't do anymore so I kept the rest of the way to a fast walk. Even though I am disappointed that I have not conceived yet, until then I will work on getting as much weight off as I can.

Pray for me that I will have the discipline to eat healthy and exercise more. Thank you.

Anna

July 15, 2011

I do not know what to write. Just in total shock.

One year ago today, I welcomed Faith into this world and 12 minutes later I had to say good bye. Her life was only 12 minutes. Short but precious. I should be having your first birthday party but instead I am going to the cemetery. How fair is that. I love you and miss you Faith!

Today we also learned another shocker, Will's Aunt Trudy passed away. I have fond memories of her. She made me feel welcomed into the Farrow Family. I always enjoyed our chats. We did not see each other often. RIP Aunt Trudy. You are loved by many!

Anna

Cherished Moments

Now that my husband Will is back to work. He has been working for almost 3 months. I notice that he is much happier with his new job. We do not have much time together and we are always rushed. So this morning we sat down at the table and enjoyed a wonderful breakfast together. In a way I am glad we do not do this every morning because when we do have the time to do this it makes it 10 times more special. Times have changed so much now. We are in such a fast paced world where it is hard to sit down as a family to enjoy breakfast together. When those moments come take advantage of them.

Anna