2011 In Review

2011 was a year of ups and downs. It started off bad but ended really well.

It started with Will losing his job. At first we were in unbelief. It was not an easy time for us finacially living paycheck to paycheck. How in the world can we live off my income alone? We are able to get capitalization on our mortgage payments so that helped us out. We still had a hard time though making ends meet. We still had not gotten over losing our daughter and that was just the icing on the cake. I was feeling like we were cursed or something. I am just thankful for family that has helped us out with food. Will got himself plugged into the John Howard Society and they worked with him to find employment. Will got hired on at Giant Tiger, in Whitby. They were opening a new store in Whitby. He was a couple wks away from starting then he got another employment opportunity in the field where he went to school for as a PSW. He is so happy now. He loves his job! I am so proud of my husband.

It came up to Faith's one year anniversary. I booked that time for my vacation because I just did not want to be around people at work and take out my mood on them. Will was working on her acutal birthday so we went up a couple days before alone and went together. On her acutal birthday a few of us went to the cemetary to remember her birthday. I am so blessed to have family and friends there with us. We went out for lunch with my friend Andrea. It was a nice time with her. I have gotten to know her a lot more and I am so blessed. The morning of Faith's anniversary I logged into facebook and learned of Will's Aunt Trudy's passing. We were just shocked. I did not get to know her that well, but when I did see her I saw a wonderful woman. The little time I got to know her I saw a woman who was loving and open. She also told you straight from the heart. I also got to meet some of Will's family as well this year, James, Suzie, John, Ken, Christopher and Scott.

The past year was an emotional rollercoaster. I had my good days and I had defintatley had my bad days. I have met some friends on facebook who have gone through the loss of their baby due to TD. I have had the chance to be there for others and see my friends welcome their rainbow babies. At the same time hoping and praying for my rainbow baby to come. There were a few times where I thought we finally got it and then I was disappointed to know we didn't. In September I was a few days late, and I didn't think too much about it. I had gotten sick with a cold and wanted some relief but the thought of being late was going in my head. I honestly didn't think I was pregnant I thought I was late because I just lost around 20lbs. Just to make sure I took a home test and sure enought it came back postive. I was so shocked! At that point I just gave up and focused on trying to lose weight. So just afer a year from Faith's original due date I got pregnant! The excitment of being pregnant was so there but at the same time I was so nervous. What if it happened again? Can I honestley really go through that again? Only time will tell. Went through the IPS test and everything is clear. I was so happy. At 15 wks I had an ultrasound just to ease my mind before Christmas and measurements were good. Then 19 wks came and we got the best news ever! Baby is growing normal. I just cried like a baby.

Christmas was awesome! My Dad came out to visit over Christmas. I think the last Christmas I spent with my dad was when I was a baby. So that was a blessing. Christmas is a busy time for my family. On the 23 is my Mom's birthday. That is when we have Justin over and do Christmas with him. Christmas Eve, Dad, Mom, Will and I went to Candlelight Service. Christmas Day was my side of the family. Mom, Dad, Jon, Maryann and Kyle. My Uncle Dave and Aunt Corrine stopped in for a visit too. I was even blessed with Christamas Eve and Boxing Day off as well. December 11 was the Farrow Family Christmas celebration. It was at Hillsdale where Will's Dad is. It was a great time. This year I did not win the Christmas trivia trophy. John's wife Suzie won. New Year's did not go that well. I was sick with the stomach flu all weekend.

2012 is going to be an exciting year for us. We are looking forward to welcoming our new addition around May 21, 2012.

I pray that 2012 will be a great year for everyone!

Happy New Year and all the best in 2012

Anna