Blessings

I am so thankful that I have Jesus in my life. Without his strength I would not have been able to get through it all. Yes, I had my moments where I was so angry with God for allowing me to go through this. Even though it was not easy I was blessed with a beautiful little girl. Even though she lived for around 12 minutes, it was the best 12 minutes of my life. I miss Faith so much. I know she is in Heaven worshiping God. Some of my moments I would play for her worship music on my belly and she would just be moving away like crazy. She loved it.

For a while I just had a hard time going to church. Every part of my being did not want to be there. I would go just for the sake of going. The past few weeks have been different. My physical body just did not want to go. I just wanted to stay at home and rest, but my Spiritual being was saying, "Come on Anna, you got to go to church." I was obedient to that voice and I was totally blessed. I feel recharged, and greater felt greater joy. I don't have to force a smile, it just came naturally.

A few weeks ago I was still feeling down, it hit me. The more angry I feel towards God the devil was happy. So I decided to Praise Jesus for all he has done. After all, if I didn't have Jesus in my life I would not have been able to get through this part of my life. I would rather make God happy than the devil.

I am just a blessed woman, I have an awesome husband! My family rocks! My OCC family, my goodness what a church! They totally blessed Will and I through this difficult time. My friends, thank you all for being here for us to get through this difficult journey. Thank you Jesus! For your love displayed toward me.

Anna